Too many times I'm left wondering what just happened. Let me explain. It seems so many times I have in mind how things are going to happen in my life, only to realize they don't pan out anything like I envisioned them.
Both of my kids are now engaged, my daughter marries in just over two weeks and my son a few months later. And because of this, there has been a lot of reflecting going on inside of me lately. Mainly about how I could've/should've done things differently. I wonder now if they are going to be able to make it out there without me to help them?
I never would have thought this time in parenthood would be the hardest; you know the letting go and watching them become adults. I still rember holding them in my arms and rocking them to sleep. This is more difficult than I ever realized.
I'm like Buzz Lightyear in a way, I thought I had it all figured out, thought I knew who I was, and what mission I was on. Only like Buzz in Toy Story, it's all come crashing down around me forcing me to realize what is really going on, and who I really am. My role is just different now, not better or worse just different. Now instead of holding them and rocking them to sleep, I'm co-signing for apartments.
I will navigate this season of life with my bride beside me, make the necessary changes I need to and continue this walk of life figuring it out one day at a time. And l'll start today by amping up my prayer life for them. Because as unsure as I am about my place right now, I'm sure they are even more unsure of theirs, because they've never been here before and I have.
So in conclusion, hold your babies close and love them a bunch, because the day is coming where they will move out and start their lives as adults. And this is what we all desire isn't it? So, "To infinity, and beyond!"
Strength and honor for the Kingdom and the King!
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