I started a book today, it's called The Silence of Adam. I'm only one chapter in, and it has already got me to thinking. One of the thoughts that I've had, is that in my pursuit of true, authentic manhood, have I missed the point? What I mean by that is, what is the true goal of becoming an authentic man? Is this a goal I want to achieve so that people can say, "Look at Dave, he sure has it all together.", or "Man I wish I could be more like Dave."
Realistically, I've got to say there may actually be a little truth in there. Not that that is the only reason that I want to be the best man that I can be for my wife, children and the community in which I live. I want to follow the examples that Jesus has laid down for me to follow. And that is where this is really going....
In order for me to be the best man that I can be, I've got to let go of everything but Jesus. I have to give it all to Him, and then follow where He leads me. No agendas, no alterior motives just follow Jesus every day and see where that leads me. And to be quite honest and transparant about that, it really is a scary proposition to follow Jesus like that. To get up each day not knowing what the day may hold.
As I was getting kids up this morning, and loading the van for my bride and kids to head off to the home school coop that we are a part of, I looked to the east and saw one of the most incredible sights I've ever seen. The sun was not yet coming over the horizon but the light of the sun was and the reflections off of the clouds in the sky was breathtaking. Oranges and lavendars in a mix that I've never quite seen together. As I stood there thanking my Father for the beautiful sunrise, I was quickened in my spirit of the Scripture that says, "God's mercies are new every morning." (Dave paraphrase).
Every day that we wake up and breathe breath is a new day full of possiblities and wonder. But do I actually live like I believe that? My days are so full of the "me possibilites" that often I find myself ending the day and thinking, "Oh, hey Lord...how was your day? Mine was, well You know....sorry I missed our time together...."
I think from reading that first chapter in The Silence of Adam, the main thing I'm finding now, is am I falling on my knees before my King and spending time in His Presence every day? The answer today is, not as much as I would like to, but then I remember that His mercy is new every morning and think...that's great, I get to try again tomorrow.
Strength and honor for the Kingdom....and the King!
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